God, if I’m being honest…

I hide things from God. Or, I think that I can hide things from God. Occasionally the thing I am hiding is intentionally sinful. Think of Cain responding to God “Am I my brother’s keeper?!” But in this case I mean that I have deep pains, insecurities, and fears that I don’t tell God about. Maybe I hide because I think that God will condemn me if I tell him I’m afraid of things he has already reassured me about. Maybe I think that God will listen then tell me I need to try harder saying “tough up buttercup.” Or maybe I think that God will dismiss me because He doesn’t care at all. But the truth is, all of these assumptions are false. Every time I have stopped to journal or pray beginning “God, if I’m being honest…” God has always answered “I’m listening. I love you.” From here I tell God all that is happening, and He so lovingly invites me to see how He is the answer to my pains, fears, and insecurities. So, I invite you, pray or journal. Tell God openly and honestly what you’ve been holding back. Let Him remind you, He loves you.

38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:38-39)

God, if I’m being honest…